[DISCLAIMER: the point of this story isn't for you all to hear me whining about how hard my life is (though I do whine), or why I should have done this, or said that. It's to show people what happens when you decide to cut BJJ out of your life, and believe me..it is a sad...sad life]
I'm not one for analogies, I'm also not one for horseback riding (in fact I've never actually tried it) but if and when I fall off the said horse, my hypothetical steed if you will, I know I'll only have two options from there. Get back on the saddle, or quit and go home.
All stories have there high points and low points, and unfortunately for me, this particular story is during my recent training rough patch. Due to some unfortunate circumstances, and my own mistakes, I haven't been able to train as much as I'd like to. Be it laziness, complications, or just plain stupidity, there is no excuse for skipping out on jiu jitsu. Granted I've had some recent troubles, whether it's getting evicted from our house, losing my job, or just not having the time or resources to do it, I still can't comfortably say that there was no way for me to train. There is ALWAYS a way to train, sadly I just didn't look hard enough.
In all the time I trained, I always loved it, but I never appreciated it for what it did for me. Jiu jitsu gave me a purpose, a reason to wake up in the mornings, gave me motivation to get through those long days, and without it my life has been seriously lacking in substance, and structure. Without BJJ I wake up, go to work, come home and go comatose in front of a screen, and that's on a good day. Most other days I sleep in till 10:00, then spend the rest of my day plastered (you guessed it) in front of a computer screen. Believe me when I say no amount of excuses can justify what you do to yourself by depriving your soul of a passion that is deeply engrained into your life.
It took me 4 months to realize what I was really missing, and everyday I regret giving up what I had. But I'm also glad that I went through this hiatus, because it gave me some insight into how much I really care about this sport. I recently started training again, and am even on the hunt for a new academy to join, and honestly I couldn't be happier. So no matter what you tell yourself, your not "too out of shape" to train, the gym isn't too far for you to travel to, and your life doesn't hold too many distractions to keep you from doing what you love.
So saddle up, hit the mats, and roll a good one for all the people
unfortunate enough not to have Jiu Jitsu in there lives.